Haunted

 What's haunting me? What am I avoiding with everything I've got? What's at the core of it?


Employment? Responsibilities? Getting up when I most don't want to?


What is feeling bad? Not worthy? Not accepted? Over-staying my welcome? Not being as cool as I think? Unnoticed expectations that don't match reality.



Work. I don't want to work. I don't want to risk myself in that way.

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