Haunted
What's haunting me? What am I avoiding with everything I've got? What's at the core of it? Employment? Responsibilities? Getting up when I most don't want to? What is feeling bad? Not worthy? Not accepted? Over-staying my welcome? Not being as cool as I think? Unnoticed expectations that don't match reality. Work. I don't want to work. I don't want to risk myself in that way.